finally made it into the gym on Sunday to do Friday's bench workout. I am having so much trouble finding motivation right now. I've gone through this a thousand times and I know I can work through it, but I'm just tired of constantly having to force myself into the gym, but knowing that if I don't I'll just destroy myself in a bottle. It's like I need to take a break from lifting for a while and find a new sport, but I haven't a clue what that would be. I love lifting, but my head is so far from it right now. Not to mention I'm apparently in a downward spiral towards weakness that is honestly depressing the crap out of me. I can't figure out why I'm losing strength. I've had plenty of bad days in the past, but this is getting ridiculous.
Bench:
5 x 265
3 x 300
2 x 335
Put the log in the rack to do some flat bench with it. Kind of a fun change up but I still hit a wall that pissed me off. Did an easy set of ten with 175lbs. Put 225 on and couldnt budge it off the pins. I don't get it. I need a bike I think.
------------------------------------------and later that day--------------------------------------------
Just writing this crap earlier today put me in a different frame of mind. I still didn't want to go out in 103 degrees and do squats, but i felt like I had called myself out. If anyone I know had told me they felt they way I wrote above, I would have immediately offered them some kind of vaginitis ointment. So anyway, the squats went better.
360 x 5
410 x 3
460 x 3
Yip. I tripled that which I could not pull of the ground once to save my life. That was about it for the workout and I'm good with that. I'm gunning for a hour run in the morning. It'll probably be easier with semi-not trashed legs.
3 comments:
Dude. You have a soul! Now i know what you're thinking about me while i'm whining. But it sho' do purge the demons. That's what i was saying the other day: sometimes it's all right to fail at something you know you can do, cuz it lets you gauge how far from healed you are. Lets you know you've earned a pass. Or a change-up. Speaking of which, you should come up and climb with me a while. Climbing's a fine sport. Getcher toes and pingers strong.
And honestly 2 of 335 ain't 'xactly pathetic. i think you should invest in one of those Home Depot/Sam's Club 60" fans fer yer gym. 103 degrees is not healthy.
it's odd logic, but I sometimes feel like if I never dug myself a hole to fall into, I'd never be climbing upwards.
Post a Comment